I’m Trying.

I’m trying
I’m trying
No I’m not.
I’m not trying, I’m dying
I’m crying, I’m lying-
I’m lying to myself.
Left open, I’m broken
Lost in that cage,
A ditch in my head.
It is there that I lie,
It is there I am dead.
So many times I had wished for death.
Living hurt more with every breath.
But I don’t really want to die,
I’m in my own way, and all I can say, is
I’m Trying To Try.