Is it just me?

Not everything in life is meant to be, Feeling trapped in a relationship causing so much stress for me. Could it be that I'm desperately seeking love, feeling confused in my mind, and pain in my heart from relationships that never change. Giving my all, only to feel like it's being abused, questioning if I'm just being used or losing my sense of self-worth. I've always been told that I don't need someone else to feel loved, but they always make me feel like I'm less than myself. I never listened until I fell head over heels into someone's arms, feeling blinded by love and wanting it to last forever. But is this really what I want? Is this truly love or is the devil taking control, leaving me feeling burdened and lost. It doesn't feel right, where is my luck, Lord please help me see clearly and be my savior. The longer I stay, the farther I am from finding my forever. It's okay to be alone, I've learned my lessons, seen my blessings, and now I'm paying attention. Let go of the past, Discover yourself and who you truly are. Release all the negativity, love yourself, Could it be that finally I feel free and at peace within myself.