Fake smile

Walking through the streets
of darkness, alone and
fearing of what's next! Your
hearts racing you start to
sweat, vision blurry you
can't see ahead! I still move
forward with nothing
Insight insight but hurting
pain of not seeing the light!
I cry at night and fake
though the day! I can't
explain the hurt once again!
It creeps up on me with it's
Grasp so tight I can't breath
no end in site! I fall to the
floor my soul ripped away
and all I can say is I go thru
it again and again every
day! I'm tired of faking the
Smile are not real but the
crying at night when I'm
only no one can fell! Your
Probably sitting here now
and thinking wow this guys
****ed up! But know all I
want is a **** huge! I've
been used I've even been
abused and when I'm alone
it all come back at once! I
wake up crying in the
middle of the night o how
can this be your 34 you've
won the fight! No it hunts
me everyday I just have to,
say is I need a huge!