Christmas without you

Christmas Time is here again
And I feel that I just won't fit in,
I have no cheer, no smiling face Just making it through by God's
                     grace.
No holidays have been the same Since you've gone everything's
                   changed.
I struggle with life day after day
 I try to be strong but nothing
             goes my way,
I want to scream at the top of my
                        lungs
God why my son he was so young
 I wonder sometimes what I've
                       done,
For god to have taken my sweet
               sweet son
I know I shouldn't feel this way
 I know exactly what you'd say, Those tears won't bring me back  
                     dear mom,
         I know you miss me
              But I have gone
I know you wonder where is God's
                           grace
But just remember to keep your
                           faith
                I know it's hard,
                But if you do
                    In the end
           I'll be waiting for you
 So give a smile or shed a tear
 But never forget I'm always near.