Analysis of Hard On Myself
I know you will never understand the shit I hold from the past
Never being good enough, no matter the times I tried
Cursed like a bastard dog for failing the one I desperately wanted to love me
Eventually becoming angry, beyond even my own control.
No one should live their young life failing and being called stupid
Being threatened, harassed and unloved by a father who knew not peace
Stupid, ignorant,asshole and dumbass I was called almost daily
Until I turned sixteen and swore to his face I'd kill him if he pushed me again.
Not many live a life daily for nearly sixteen years in fear
Not many I pray, no not one,
The cursing I endured now repeats in my head...I can't make it stop
I have to get away, fearing my own hatred, for myself
Never good enough, failure now, forces my mind to seize
Now cursing myself, as my father did, only to turn away
Shelter, cover and face my own internal wrath
It is in times of joy my sadness returns, to make it hard on myself.
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Poetic Form | |
Metre | 111110010111101 10101011100111 110101110011100010111 010000101001101101 111111110010110 10100100110101111 10101111110 01110101111111111101 1101011011001101 11011111 0101011010111111 11110110111011 10101101101111 110111101101101 101001110101 11011111001111111 |
Closest metre | Iambic octameter |
Characters | 969 |
Words | 189 |
Sentences | 4 |
Stanzas | 1 |
Stanza Lengths | 16 |
Lines Amount | 16 |
Letters per line (avg) | 48 |
Words per line (avg) | 11 |
Letters per stanza (avg) | 763 |
Words per stanza (avg) | 183 |
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