For a Long, Long Time

For a long, long time
I wanted so badly
for someone to save me
from myself.
For a long, long, time
I prayed so hard
that someone would
sweep me off my feet,
steal me from my own mind.
For a long, long time
I believed
that I needed to be saved,
that I was not
Loveable
because of things I cannot change.
For a long, long time
I hated the parts of me
that were most integral to my being.
I hated the parts
That have taught me the most
about love.