Analysis of Inside My Head
I dont wanna live but I don’t wanna die
What is life when all you do is cry
Happy moments empty, sad moments numb
I don’t know when this had begun.
It feels like my whole life was always this way
Constantly questioning day by day
Never had time to find myself
Nor to actually feel how I felt
If it wasn’t for bad memories, I’d have none
Isn’t that sad, to have no good ones?
Every event that should’ve been good
Triggered past trauma that left me undone
I try so hard to stay out of my head
But somehow end up there when in my bed
I hate that it happens but it feels familiar
An odd sense of security always lingers
Behind the regret, the shame and the anger
Fear is really the ultimate anchor
It weighs me down and keeps me here
Any sign of a future disappears
I can’t let go or say goodbye
To the little girl who was by my side
Through all of the years of numbness and pain
My best friend at the end of the day
I don’t want to abandon her too
That makes me equal to those fools
I know what it’s like to feel alone
To be a stranger in your own home
Until I can’t, I’ll hold her hand
Keep her safe as long as I can
If I let her go, half of me dies
I don’t think I’m ready for that type of cry
Scheme | AAXB CCXX BXXB DDEX EEXX AXXC XXXX XXXA |
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Poetic Form | |
Metre | 11101111101 111111111 1010101101 11111101 1111111111 100100111 1011111 111001111 11111100111 11111111 100011111 1011011101 1111111111 111111011 111110111010 11110100110 01001010010 1110010010 11110111 101101001 1111111 1010111111 1110111001 111101101 111101001 11110111 111111101 110100111 01111101 10111111 111011111 11111011111 |
Closest metre | Iambic pentameter |
Characters | 1,225 |
Words | 259 |
Sentences | 3 |
Stanzas | 8 |
Stanza Lengths | 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4, 4 |
Lines Amount | 32 |
Letters per line (avg) | 29 |
Words per line (avg) | 8 |
Letters per stanza (avg) | 115 |
Words per stanza (avg) | 31 |
About this poem
Just some late night thoughts
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