Three days and seven,nine and forty

Three days and seven,nine and forty,
How long you're staying here with me?
Is there a truth in immortality of soul?
Is it impossible for you to stay eternity?
Is it my wish for you to resurrect from dust and coal?

Helo-o-o-o!I'm desperately searching
With eyes wide shut for messages from you.
But when you come through spirit of my dream
I'm empty air like blind kitten catching.
You're there!I feel you!God,It is a dirty scheme!

I do recall of touching you so cold,
Of staring at your boneless breathless chest,
Your sleeping hands,your stitched and silent lips.
I've talked upon your casket like possessed,
I do remember Priest and taking water freezing sips.

You're dead! Oh, God forever dead!
This pain!Please take it from my heart away!
This pain has chortled in my flesh and mind,
This pain that many tears could never shed...
You're here?I feel you!... No,you died...