Saying Good-Bye

I woke up early that morning
it was the first time in years I was up before sunrise.
The house was silent, the kids left years ago and
they all have families of their own.
I recorded the show you like to watch and I made
your favorite breakfast pancakes with homemade strawberry syrup.
I cannot wait to see you, Jonathan
I miss your smile, laughter, sarcastic remarks,
and I miss your hugs and kisses.
I grabbed my coat and was out the door
I got into my car and drove to your home to visit you one more time.
Doctor Shapiro thinks it is unhealthy for me
to keep visiting you because I will never move on.
This will be the last time I see you.
I open the car door and walked toward the
entrance to your new home, I put flowers on the doorstep,
I looked down as tears began to slide down my face.
I grabbed the shovel from the trunk
so I could hug you one more time,
I just wanted to say good-bye; I just wanted to say good-bye.