Lost

lost and in pain
not knowing which way to look
it feels like you took my sanity
and now if i ever feel good it feels like vanity
i keep asking God; "why are you mad at me?!"
you gave me gifts but never an opportunity
to use them
so i guess ill flow to the popular belief and lose them...
as i drown in a pool of beers
and my peers stand clear
its not like they don't like me
i'm just a little weird...
most of them think i look good
i'm intelligent and pretty funny
but for some strange reason i can never find some one who will even try to love me...