Twisted from the inside

I looked at my reflection  
just a shadow did I see  
for I was filled with clouded judgment
no image could there be..
 
I had wandered off into a place  
where dreams do not belong  
staring at the ripples
from where I did go wrong..
 
I might have learned to change some things
deep inside of me
If only I had known
the darkness that could be..
 
 
I struggled with afflictions  
to numb me from the pain  
submerged in my destruction
I don't even know my name..
 
 
Deep down I wanted peace
but where was I to start  
for how to build a person
from a broken heart..
 
2-11-2021