Somebody I used to know

Today I was asked to think of something nice to do for myself everyday
But I couldn't,
I froze I couldn't think of a single nice thing I'd want to do
I literally had nothing to say,

My suggestions covered good deeds for others but they didn't consider me,
Then it dawned on me
That I don't consider myself as worthy
Apparently

I don't value my upkeep in any format whatsoever,
So I dont actually care about me,
Which is heartbreaking in reality,
Somewhere along the line I lost that happy go lucky me,

Who is this person who now stands before me,
I do not recognise her anymore,
Nor does anyone else for that matter
This new persona isn't at all familiar,
 
I only wish I could go back to happier times,
But I feel trapped  
Staring at somebody I used to no
A stranger who's lost and alone where's the girl I used to no!