NUMB

I don't feel it anymore
And it scares me.
Loneliness, once a familiar companion,
Now absent, and it worries me.

I don't seek this absence of feeling,
Yet, a numbing sensation takes hold,
As if emotions slowly fade away,
And that prospect fills me with dread.

When was the last time I lit up,
In the presence of another, near or online?
When did butterflies flutter in my stomach?
The memory fades, and uncertainty grows.

And who knows? I might end up not having to feel anymore, and it scares me.
For emotions, though complex and chaotic,
Are part of what makes us human, and I fear their departure.

                                                            -mishrarushi