Sadness

These sad tears fall from my eyes Because of your untimely goodbyes Why did it have to be so much pain Did I not please you enough that you had to leave me in this cloud of rain
I catered to your every need
At Least I thought I was doing the deed
My alienating was to not hurt you with sharp hateful words
But I guess that gesture bothered you more than stomach curds
I'm truly sorry for making you so miserable
You shouldn't have acted like we had something so memorable
I can't believe you've staked my heart
I've dreamt and dreamt of us, but never apart
This pain is truly too much to bear
But I can't act like you and not even care
I want nothing more than for us to be as one
But I've lost you to her, and so she has won
I don't understand why you had to do it this way
This has been so devastating, especially you leaving me in this disarray
Never in my lifetime, I would ever think you would treat me like that Leaving me indoors like some fucking house cat
My heart will never be the same And you wonder why you haven't reached your fame
Remember, womanizer is what I used to describe you
O boy was that so true
I can't believe I don't feel any hate Loving you again will not be my fate
I don't think I've ever been this damaged
You knowing my history, wonder if you took advantaged
I want to scream out til my lungs burst
GOD, why did I put this man first
I understand a mother taking a life All I wanted was to be your good wife
I'm struggling with the thoughts in my head
Continuously you fornicated in my bed
You were my Elliott and I your Sophia
Could've just dropped me in the Crimea
This feels like death
And you are the one that took my last breath.