Unstable

The attention people give me is strained

The emotions I have are misunderstood even by myself

I feel distance in people's voices

And I feel so alone

On the other side of reality, in another life, with another lifetime

It seems like no one could understand

How could they when I don't even understand myself

Maybe I'm just being dramatic, like a teenage girl who is left unattended at her birthday party

My life so often is dissolving into long and lonely tears

It feels so empty, useless, meaningless

Like why should I keep going?

The only answer I can come up with is my mother

She loves me so much, and I couldn't abandon her

I miss Chester Bennington

I wish I knew Jesus

I miss Chris Cornell

People who gave me hope

I don't belong here

I shouldn't be here anymore