Perfect betrayer

October, you have betrayed me twice,  
Once when you offered me sweet paradise -
I was naïve...believed all your lies,
Letting you play in front of my eyes.

Your game was well-played, pretty smart.
It left me speechless, with broken heart.
You emptied my soul, stole all I had,
And stayed there forever, fooling my head.

Your second try killed me completely,
I wanted to hide, dissappear discreetly.
Still cannot flee, it's burning inside,
Driving me crazy, affecting my mind...

Surrounded by magical falling leaves -
Beautiful nature that perfectly grieves...
Nothing to lose, nothing to keep,
No one to blame, no reason to weep.

Precious October, please, let me heal,
You've done enough - you know how I feel.
See you next year, leave me for now,
I will survive!...For sure...somehow.