Watch me work

On my knees I fall to you
My feet can no longer bear this weight
I have tried so much
Love Compassion Humility
All of the trust and intimacy
Pieces of me breaking slowly and silently
The glue you held from me
Threw it in the trash
Then
I opened my eyes and I could see
My soul was calling for me
Screaming my name
Begging me
Pleading over and over to try and save me
My mind couldn't catch up to me
My heart closed it's gates
I lost
My breath was faint
My touch was numb
Shattered
Every piece of me hitting the ground
Unfixable
Every piece of me looking back at me still
Afraid to even try to clean myself up
I sweep these pieces into a pile
But as I try to regain it all back
You remind me of everything wrong about me
You accuse me
You lie to me
You unfilter me
Worst of all
You took the instructions
So I hope you like what shattered has for you
Especially since it doesn't know what goes where
My raw naked stripped down truth is here for you
Don't help me now
Step back and watch me work