Escape from reality

How can it be that I am already dead but my body continues to breathe my soul is telling me to stop living “your very life’s meaning packed up and walked away”- for what reason do you still strive on? The echos of what it used to be still ring in my head still sting still brings pain. How can I escape the dark when you my light itself escape from me? I’m not perfect, I don’t get straights A’s, I don’t get none of that so why do I feel useless, unloved, and not happy? Why do I feel like people hate me but in reality they don’t? I feel empty, stressed, sad and don’t know what to feel.