This feeling of Loneliness.

I thought I would never be plagued by this feeling.
The loneliness, isolation, aloneness, seclusion, segregation, solitude the lonesomeness.

I thought I would never be tortured by this feeling.
It feels like there is a vacuum cleaner inside of me that sucks out the fullness, coherence and happiness and replaces it with emptiness, disconnectedness and sadness.

I feel lonely.
Like everyone asks ''How are you?'' but nobody actually want to be bothered with your problems.
They just want to hear ''I'm good you?'' but I'm not good.

I'm just a corpse that's able to walk around.
People tell me ''your guardian angel will come around and save you''.
So I keep screaming louder and louder.
My voice vanishing.
and I'm silent.

Why can't that guardian angel just come out.
Why can't it just save me from this deep hole of loneliness?
Why can't it make me feel alive again?

Walking with a friend in the dark is better than walking alone in the light.
But in the end we all walk alone.