Nonexistent memories

Why did I choose this state of mind
How many chances did I fail to make you mine.
Lost in translation
My own thoughts Forsaken
I need you. I need to tell you.
That I cant find a new way to be.
For without you, there is no me.
Memories of moments that seem so surreal.
Brief rips in time, briefly I called you mine.
Though you say it never mattered all that much. I can see the tears in your eyes.
Telling me how it hurts to tell that lie