lost opportunity

fried,
within the mind comes the line
of all the things we wouldn’t find
a lie
we try
we live to die
when it comes to the worst moments
we deny
hold on hold on
why can’t i hold on?
there’s nothing to hold onto
there was nothing ever there
why am i holding on?
done and gone
whats there to be forever wrong
let the world consume me
and let the darkness within
take ahold what of all i can search for
blame the hurt
make me heartless
forget the worse
get me out what’s not worth it