Obsession confession

I can't stop obsessing about you me when we were Us I fell asleep thinking about you. I wake up and my first thought is you. I wish we were still us. I can't understand how I can even think that way. So many memories swirl around in my mind my brain is on overload. I asked myself why is this so hard to just stop obsessing let go. The mental breakdown turns into emotional torture. I losing my identity because I just can't stop myself from thing of you and I'm falling to pieces. I wonder are you happier with her? Why was I not good enough? why her not me. Was our love even real. I don't even know why I need these answers all I know is I just do. I must confess that this obsession with you is  is taking complete control of my life.  I begged myself please just let him go, it's probably better if you just don't know the truth.