Shadows whats dead

as  smoke shadows over my soul
beyoned the streams that will not flow
stagment water will not change
in this place it stays the same
costent sitting
 rotting away
soon enough ill start to decay
a mind so weak
one like mine  
can fall to deep
below the line
dead inside to fell whats free
making up this life i bleed
it seems im trying to numb my thoughts
of all the years that i have lost
its my own fault
im not one to blame
its such a shame
but i live for pain
shadowed off behind the eye
that watches me lay down and hide    
it takes control it wont let go
holding on to my dead soul
screaming out i feel the light
but i break down
im still alive
wanting this it could not give
my death i crave but still a slave
and yet i live another day
just wast away and feel betrayed
to the eye unknown that looks right through
that passes me up just like a fool
Angela Aline Black