NO. 1

Tomorrow feels pointless
Yesterday seems Thoughtless
Why didn't i appreciate what i had
While i had it
Instead i self isolated
Constantly resorting to self hatred
I was blind to what i had
But could see what i lacked
New connections feel worthless
No one will truly care for you
They All leave anyway
Constant contact with a lack of perception
A lack of interaction with myself
Im here
But i'm not
Part of me feels trapped
Drowning in a pitch black pool
Im crying for help
But no one hears
over the waves around me
I've been here for so long
I'm starting to acclimate to my surroundings
I think….
I think….
I think i’ve begun to accept these torturous drownings