Ocean of Sorrow

Drowning in an ocean of my sorrow
 Deep inside my soul
 Inside my heart
You broke me
 I loved you
And you broke me
I took my fragile glass heart
Out of my chest
Entrusted it to you
You held it
And I thought that I was safe
When I needed you most
When I was drowning in an ocean of sorrow
And your hands on my heart
Were the only things keeping me afloat
 I reached for you
Trusted you to pull me out
But you smiled cruelly
Opened your hands
let my heart fall
let it shatter
on the rocks below
turned your back
and left me there
left me to sink
beneath the waves
and drown
in an ocean of my sorrow
As I sunk below
I begged you
Begged you to look back
And you said
“I have other friends”
As if we were ever only friends
We were always more
From recesses pretending
That we were gods and demons
Nights sleeping next to each other
When I cried with you
And that night at the hotel
You were my first kiss
My first real love
I felt safe
Thought 'This is forever
This is all I will ever need
This is good
This is real'
But you said you fell out of love
You mattered more to me than I did
So I lied, said I did too
If I couldn’t have you in that way
I could keep you as a friend
Keep you in my life
You kept me afloat
When I was in danger of sinking below
We had each other
And that was enough
Then you found someone else
It hurt me deep inside
But I put on a face
And told you I was happy for you
I laughed and pretended I was fine
When you broke up
I hid my glee
Comforted you
The perfect best friend
Defended you no matter what
Placed you on a pedestal in my mind
I saw you as a god
In my eyes, you could do no wrong
Your smile, your laugh
[2:30 PM]
More potent than any drug
I was drunk off you
High on your presence
 I trusted you with my secrets
Loved you with my whole heart
Did it ever occur to you
When you broke my soul apart
That the one who you left broken
Was the one who would always have loved you
But you left
Just wanted to talk
But you left me there to drown
In an ocean of my sorrow