A Spiritual Deficit

I’m scared it’s deep sadness, or maybe just madness, the kind of the mind that they just can’t prescribe for. A spiritual deficit, a total requisite, I don’t even know what that means but it fits. I think I just stepped into a steaming pile of horseshit served hot, with a cherry on top, please clean up what you don’t finish with a mop … soaked in disregard, from that broken dreams boulevard, where I lost my car. Oh well, it was only a rental, a figmented soup lentil. Sometimes I feel mental, like really unstable, and completely unable to label these fables of foreign fictatials. It’s outside-box thinking, of inner-square linking, that keeps my mood sinking, when the red & blue blinking - those lights, that awful screaming siren of the night. When I have nothing left, just a head full of fright, there’s just no more fight. But Goddamn Sir! That shits way too tight! But what’s the point, we have no more rights. Easily thrown straight outta sight. And visitors you’ll have that you definitely don’t like, they’re demons from seasons of past deeds of treasons! And they’ll surround you, and hound you, then pound you, it’s bound to. And with your last breath, when there’s just nothing left, you’ll wish for your own death. And some will succumb to that eternal numb. Or maybe it’s fire and brimstone you’ll know, when you get sent down way below. Or maybe it’s heaven, if you hit 777’s, in this casino of life, that seems so trife. Or reincarnation, into a Volkswagen Station, or maybe a thug, or a cute little pug. I just can’t claim to know so I shrug. But others seem pretty certain, of the man behind that heavenly curtain. And since I don’t know, I just try to listen and grow, into anyone other than who I used to know. But as I try to stay true, I still feel awkward and blue, cause the progress is slow, I wish it’d just snow, and render me white, so I’d feel alright, that shit’d be tight!! But since there’s no quick cure to be holy and pure, I’m still insecure, and quite unsure, but I’ll endure, till I’m grown and mature.

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