Karma

KARMA IS THAT YOU?
IN THE FORM OF A MOTHER THAT REFUSES TOO LOVE ME
WITH THE QUICKNESS TOO PUT MEN AND DRUGS ABOVE ME
BUT NEVER THOUGHT TWICE ABOUT BLACKING MY EYES OR BUSTING MY LIP
MY CHILDHOOD DIED IN YOUR GRIP
OR MAYBE YOU WERE IN THE FORM OF THE MAN WHO TOOK MY INNOCENCE WITHOUT MY CONSENT
MY BLOOD ON THE CEMENT, YOU CAME AND THEN YOU WENT
THE TORMENT I UNDERWENT WAS ENOUGH TOO FERMENT AND SPROUT A SEED OF MALICIOUS INTENT
WISHING A PAINFUL END TOO YOUR LIFE COULDN’T SATISFY THE RAGE THAT BURNS INSIDE ,THAT DAY THE CHILD LEFT IN ME DIED
KARMA HAVE YOU COME IN THE FORM OF A FRIEND WHO TURNED ENEMY IN THE END
THE ONE PERSON ID DEFEND AND IN RETURN IT WAS ALL PRETEND AND I DIDN’T COMPRHEND THAT EVERYTHING YOU SAID WAS A LIE, IT WAS JUST TOO GATHER ENOUGH INFORMATION FOR YOUR SUPPLY
OF MISERY
 YOUR ARTILLARY OF AMMO TO USE AGAINST ME IN A TIME OF NEED AND I FED YOUR GREED, YEARS LATER I HOPE YOUR PLEASED WITH THIS IMAGE YOU PERCEIVED BECAUSE THE DEATH OF OUR BOND WAS SOMETHING I GREIVED BECAUSE MY LOYALTY YOU DECEIVED
KARMA HAVE YOU COME IN THE FORM OF LOVE , THE LOVE THAT JUST WONT LAST
THE LOVE THAT REMINDS ME OF MY PAST
THE ONE THAT TRIGGERS MY FEAR TOO BE ALONE, I MEAN IVE MADE IT THIS FAR ON MY OWN, THIS IS THE ONLY LOVE IVE EVER KNOWN OR MAYBE IT’S THE ONLY LOVE IVE BEEN SHOWN. MAYBE IT WASN’T LOVE AT ALL. LOVE WOULDN’T MAKE CRY AND CURL UP IN A BALL. LOVE WOULDN’T MAKE YOU FEEL SO SMALL. LOVE WOULDN’T MAKE TURN YOU INTO A STRANGER, FEELING IM IN DANGER FILLED WITH ALL THIS ANGER.
KARMA IM SORRY IF IM BOTHERING YOU WITH ALL THESE QUESTIONS
IM TRYING TOO UNDERSTAND THE MEANING BEHIND ALL THESE LESSONS
I WAS GIVEN NO DISGRESSION, AND NOW I OVER FLOW WITH THIS AGGRESSION, THEN THERES THE DEPRESSION FOLLOWED BY MY QUESTIONS.  WAS IT YOU KARMA? DID I DO SOMETHING WRONG IN MY PAST LIFE, TOO DESERVE THIS LIFE. AND I WONT PLAY THE VICTIM, BAD ENOUGH  I WAS RAISED BY THE SYSTEM SO I ASK THIS IN WISDOM. HAVE YOU STAYED LONG ENOUGH TOO LEAVE LIKE THE REST? MAYBE IF I KEEP YOU CLOSE , SLOWLY YOULL BECOME A GHOST AND ILL NO LONGER BE YOUR HOST. YOULL GET TIRED OF ROLLER COASTER EMOTIONS AND CONSTANT DEVOTION TOO ALL THINGS NO GOOD. KARMA YOU GOT IT , MAYBE IT WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE UNDERSTOOD.