I Don’t Deserve Your Love

Each day…
I wish
                   I could Be….somebody else
            

                   This.
                    loneli-
                    ness…. Has entrapped me

And the dawn broke
                       It broke
          the morning sky

I awoke
       To the knock….
Could this be the One
  They call the Holy Rock
Knock, knockin’ on the door
Of this barren heart
But I found it to be not
              
Jesus
                               I opened the front door
it invited itself in,
         “Hello, Sommer,
                                   I’m your new friend”

I asked it to leave
                               I even said pretty please
                   Now it takes
                                       residents here
Maybe I should write
                     A note of eviction
But I’m reminded
                                      Of
                      My Past convictions



I’m not deserving of love
                                             I’ve lost my best friend
The one I counted on
                  The one i loved
                                to dote upon
She had her reasons
to
Turn, Walk away….
                                       now…shes gone


These tears are like a River

                                Flowing down my face
It makes me wonder
              “how could God
                                     even count them?”


You expect i’ll be alright
                           You say,”oh she’ll be fine.”

                     Really I am shattered to a point that words can’t define


I don’t feel much
                              like trying to get up
                Ever since
loneliness came in
                            No matter where I go
Even at the grocery store
I’m reminded of a sweet scent
A sweet scent
Of the one who left
                                                But Loneliness is there
In a room of 100 people
I don’t feel that same connection
I know you don’t get it
                       but  I miss my best friend
               “Now, Sommer, cheer up,
Dry your eye
For I
                               Loneliness,
                      Will be your best friend.”


                      Is this the Grand Finale
          And
My
                                 Deserving end