are you there

the phone rings.
i answer and say hello !,a few moments silence ensues .
a voice at the other end says my name

 and i say yes.
the tell me my mother was  dead.
i felt a loss and my knees got weak and i fell to my knees broken hearted i cried so hard it caused convulsions and my whole body hurt my mind was shook.
i didn't no where to turn.
the lady said are you there,are you there.???
i sat rocking back and forth crying hard could not eat my i could not sleep. i felt alone.
i yelled to god are you there,are you there??
i felt alone . afraid and cursed all at once.
i can"t blame god. she is in a better place........