Words

"Worthless"
"Bitch"
"Ugly"
"Dumb"
"Slut"
"Whore"
"Crazy bitch"
"Go kill yourself "
My mind says
"F*ck my life"
"Take pills I want to die"
"Cut myself, I don't deserve to live"
"I am Ugly"
"I just want to make it stop"
"Go cut some more"
"Hopefully I don't wake up"
No one understands the hurt,the pain,the trauma that this man has put me through he's trying  to control  me again like he controlled me all the years he raped me
He doesn't want to pay child support for the child he helped  make by rape he still wants me to be quite and not yell the world about  the monster he was and still is he hid behind  my mom for over a Decade my mom protected him over me now she's  dead and he has no one to hide behind and I am in control now.