not like you

It’s early morning when you peek
Into the living room
Expecting that you’ll find me there
It’s to the point that I don’t speak
To stall impending doom
Neglecting what’s in disrepair

If only I was just like you

I love you
Truly love you
It’s obvious you just don’t care
When you tell me
That you hate me
You’re much too kind to me I swear

I love you
Always loved you
But I’m too tired now to care
So go on
You can hate me
This isn’t going anywhere

Can’t believe you have the nerve
To always question why
Here’s the answer you deserve—
On second thought, I think I’ll lie

I’ll say,
“I want to be just like you
So now I lie.
If you catch me, much like you,
I’ll just deny.
I’ll be breaking every rule—
I’ll tell you why.
I know now not to trust in you.
I won’t confide.
I’ll feel fine when you’re the fool
Who I defied—
When I have lied.”

If only I was just like you
If I didn’t give a damn like you

I love you
Always loved you
You’re too into you to care
When you tell me
That you hate me
I’ll suggest that you prepare

As I love you
But can’t stand you
And I’m still tired— I don’t care
That you hate me
I should hate you
Perhaps you can go— anywhere

Can’t believe you had the nerve
You didn’t even try
Gave you more than you deserve—
You made me want to die

So I said,
“I wanted to be just like you.
Why couldn’t I?
I’ll never be just like you.
I couldn’t lie.
I’ll settle for something new.
This is goodbye…
I said, ‘goodbye.’”