Fighting shadows

A royal dance hall..
            °But no music to hear.. °
Here between the voices i fight
I sit with no breaths out or light
Right after roaming around a beautiful wind
A delight flow Strain and in my heart pinned
A little bit of pain defiled that heart
Such a shame no paths for a new start
How amazed i am! lost between those words
Like an old arrow and a sacred swords..
But then an old flame restrain that fear
Of a fighter fighting old times to appear
How would a shiver change a fate
Of two peoples thought they were soulmate
Betrayals always in stand
To let all the ugliness in my world land
The ugliness that full all my eyes
And shut me down destroy my warm rise
So bright your eyes they said
They don't know how fake that brightness look in my head
Away from sorrows and pain
Me playing with ryhmes and blowing ur brain
Riddles and puzzles that's what all my days contain
Solve them all  so  my memories crane
How is it  looking for you from up there  
Let me take u down and put u under my square
My square of infinite questions and games
With no clear gains or specific aims
Just an eternal torment of grief
An old soul with no mates to relief...