Cry4him

I’m ruining everything again
That’s it.
Im too complicated and difficult for him.
My eyes water at the slightest yell
And I get mad at the dumbest things
I know this is not the me he wanted
This is not the me i wanted to give him
So I’ll cry for him
Like I’m expected to do
Like its the only thing I can do
And there I go again
Messing everything up like the mess I am
I ache at the fact he's not 100% mine
And I frown at the thought I’m not the only one he sees
Yes, I know this is not the me he so longingly waited for
This is not the me I prepared for him.
So of course I’ll cry for him
Why wouldn’t I?
It’s the only thing that I can do that both he wants
And im good at
So I’ll cry for him
I’ll cry very very hard for him
How I miss him
And I miss him missing me too.