That

We use to be so close what happened to that
I thought we were even making progress
Started talking about emotions to imagine that
I tried so hard to be something I'm not
I wanted you to be happy you must no  that
But it didn't work you still seemed disappointment
What more could I do I couldn't change that
I just can't measure up and I don't think I ever will
So much time was stolen from me you new that
I'm having to start all over again from scratch
Who what and where and then where to go from that,
All I ever wanted was for you to be proud of me
And that
You accepted me for who I was warts and all
Unfortunately I don't feel you feel like that
I've felt under valued unappreciated and unnoticed
For a very very long time and that's a fact that
I cant speak to you, you don't seem to hear my words
I don't no if choose to do that
Or if you simply don't understand what I'm telling you,
But I cannot continue to live disconnected like that
Surely your the one person that should no me
Yet were unable to communicate and I hate that,
I hate that we don't talk now
I hate that we don't laugh now
I hate that we don't gossip now
I hate that we don't joke now
I hate that we don't go out now
I hate that we don't talk now
The phone is silent no other calls or text really Matter,
I race to the phone but your names not there I no that
This bitter battle of stubbornness is so cold it hurts
Do you feel that? I wonder Can you feel it to, that?
Expressinon of a wish or even a regret
You no that, that is known, or understood that
That referring to a specific thing or heard by the speaker
Or that that used to identify something that,
That you no that, that, that feeling that, that.
Do you feel that, that feeling to I wonder if you do.
That we shouldn't be like this that
things were said that shouldn't have been that
Venomous words hurt when spat that
We should have talked communicated that
This silence is outrageous and resolves nothing that
Change can happen and we should change this that is what that I mean that past tense that should be replaced with a present tense that.