The Strongest Wall

What am I doing here?
How did I get to this point?
Where am I going?
How will I get there?

These are the questions im asking myself on a daily basis.
I ask them not knowing the answers.
I want someone to answer these questions for me.
But im not getting any answers.

That's because I am the only one with the answers.
Only I can answer those questions.
So then I ask myself,
Where are the answers hiding.

The truth is I have buried so much,
That I can no longer find the answers.
Buried so much that,
I can no longer find who I am.

I am lost and confused.
I am confused and hiding.
I am hiding and scared.
I am scared and lost.

It is a never ending cycle that needs to end.
It is a cycle that is turning me inside out,
and upside down.
It is a cycle that is tearing me apart slowly.

It stands in the way of everything I do.
No matter how hard I try to get around it.
No matter how hard I try to go over it.
No matter how hard I try to go through it.
It is the only wall that I can never seem to break down.

It is the wall that I have built.
It is the wall that surrounds me.
It is the wall that needs to come down.
Please help me break down this wall.
I have tried and failed on my own for far too long.
It is only now that I realize, I cannot do it alone.