Close My Eyes

Close My Eyes...
If I Close My Eyes Will The Pain Cease,
There Voices Stop just so I Can Sleep.
If I Close my eyes will something Change.
If I could do it again so much I'd rearrange.
If I Close my eyes will the fear go away,
The memory of her being  carried Away.
If I Close my eyes will I see see through,
That nightly dream where  your are the floor lips turning  Blue.
If I Close my eyes will those thoughts subside,
Of How during the night you died at my side.
If I Close my eyes will I be able to Breathe,
Feel whole again & start to believe.
If I Close my eyes will the Demon walk right by,
If I put the needle in will I live or I Die.
If I Close My Eyes Will there still be fear,
Will my life & purpose ever become clear.
If I Close my eyes will I see the ledge or will I fall.
If I Close my eyes will it change Anything At All...
If I Close my Eyes will I catch a glimpse of you,
Or is re living this pain the best I can do.
If I Close My Eyes Can I find a way to love myself,
Truly Be Who I am or pretend like everyone  else.
DONT GIVE UP