off

why did you put me off  
when you could’ve had me closer,  
then deny me a smile,
crush me with a whisper,  
hand me a frown for closure?....  

from the corner of my mind  
burn me with the delicate touch  
of your rejection ....  
pain is always around
loaded all wrong ...
& I’ll always be there in the fall  
to see you get high ....  

I'll hurt until the pain becomes a best friend
as you wished me,  
drown until I breathe water...  
sleep until I become dirt....  
prove to me that I’m  
somebody, you know....  
& you always prove to me that  
you’re more than a woman ....  
more than a fly by night ....
you are here to stay ...
in my head ....