Desperately

You find yourself alone
Even with everyone there
Hoping they don't see you,
Judging eyes everywhere
Wishing you could somehow make it to your room
But doesn't take long to feel like a fucking tomb
Everything you try to do, always such a chore
Most days you don't  make it past your bedroom door
Its hard for you to admit there may be something wrong
But you know you  haven't felt right,its been way too long
You don't know what to do, feels like you've reached your end
Out of time, out of breath too tired to try again
People try and  make you feel bad for feeling bad
Maybe they would understand if they lost everything they had
At least you realize you could really use some help
Your Just not strong enough to make the call yourself
You may not believe there's really someone there
To help you with everything
Because they love and care