Only if

Only if you knew the pain I am In only if you felt the sadness in my heart only if you knew what it takes every day to wake up an feel like your not worth anything In this world .

Only if you understood my heartache .
Only if you understood what it's worth
Only if you understood the barrings that it takes me to hold onto to keep it all togeather .

Only if you could feel what you put me through
Only if you could feel the loneliness inside
Only if you could feel what you did to me through the years .

Only if you could see the hell you put me through
Only if you could see what Pain you have caused me day in an day out
Only if you could see the trama I sacrifice everyday .

Only if you would understand that my world is shattered
Only if you would understand the nightmares you caused me to have night after night
Only if you understand that is was never meant to be the way you never was there for me .

Only if you could hear my crys
I ly if you could hear my sadness
I ly if you could hear my screams when you was hurting me
Only if you could hear tell you over an over again the hell I went through to understand that love don't hurt somebody the person with hatered an Shame and be littleing was never want I wanted in life .

Only if you knew I hated you
Only if you knew my children was my world and you tryed to take them from me . Only if you knew I'm a strong woman an have over come my fear .
Only if you knew that you could never tell the trouth you kept lieing an trying to say it's all me when I only if you knew it's wasn't me.

Only if you knew what you put your children through day in an day out
Only if you knew that they are suffering through this loss an trama and what u did to them was not how you raise ur kids
Only if you knew love don't hurt it's the person who hurts one another
Only if you knew the abuse you put me an my children though
Only if you would just admit to it an stopped lieing through these year to everyone an anyone
Only if you knew that your passing just released all my fears an resentment an anger inside an all the abuse you did to my kids an me.
Only if you knew yes. Only if you knew but you didn't ever care it's how u was had to be about you an in controle .