Crumbling

For so long I have been suffocating,
in a world where no amount of oxygen
could ever ease my pain
I have tried time and time again to
fit in, to please, to belong somewhere
I was never wanted in the first place
and it is this excruciatingly vast effort
to be something, someone I am not
that has not only suffocated me, but it
has stifled and stunted my growth.
I was always trying to build something
beneath someone else’s weight and
I kept crumbling, but now it’s different.
I was trying to push my way through the
pavement, but instead I put down roots
in field I better belong.