Traitorous Trust

The young mountain was not fair enough .
I can stand still on my own , that is what he had in mind .
He  used to see me strong and rough .
I hid my weakness and waited for him to find me fine .
He gave his word "I will keep holding you so tough" .
I thought he was behind me ,but I was blind .
 The promise was not kept, it was a lie .
My sadness hurts me more than my tears which do not fade away .
It was a dark night and he  become a star and flew.
 l lost all the strength in my legs and fell down without any word to say . I am getting tired of looking exhausted and faking my smile .
My confidence let down and stopped looking very high .
It rained a lot on me and grief stood as an obstacle in my way .
I want to give up my dreams which I have kept for a long time .
I have hardly kept holding out every time I feel like that with a new wile .
I try to believe in myself  but I  can not  .
Now I do not know how much longer I can keep holding out , life changes its style .
I am comforting myself that someday I will be able to go through the rime .
Oh star, look how I have grown up and no longer play , I am doing all my best .
There is no longer a shoulder to cry on  .
The bird's wing has grown and it is time to leave the nest .
This makes me afraid little by little as soon as I feel like coming of age .
Little by little I become myself which makes me worry .
I hope that God helps me and the tears stop falling. One day I will get a happy heart  .