The brightness the light holds

It's not the darkness I'm afraid of
It's the brightness the light holds,
That makes me want to run off
Because if death was knocking at my door,
I'd welcome it like a long lost friend.
All I want to do is runaway from this world,
Not knowing where to be
Even if I disappear no one will grief over me.
They told me all my scars and the pain I feel is not a big deal
And to just get over it because it's not hard to heal
They said what I went through is not that tough,
Because some people have it way more rough .
I fall in love with half the people who pass by me
But I can't even say ‘I love you' to the people who raised me
It's not the darkness I'm afraid of
It's the brightness the light holds,
That makes me want to run off.