Lost

I saw her but didnt call out to her .
Now my heart aches for that mistake.
Just to hide from everyone but they all won't understand
The pain
The heartache
The loneliness
The trauma
The trauma
The trauma...
My God the trauma !

To hide it all and walk far far away
Noone understands
Everyone talks and everyone complains more of her of me
Who is she?
Who am I?
Why is she lost..
lost to the world ??
Doesnt she care at all ??
Is she lazy can't she work ?...
yes yes she's always late. .
Can she cook ... ??
She have kids?!
They don't knw she .. they don't knw me... I
I Can't even watch the mirror
I can't even watch myself in the eyes
I can't even watch them in their eyes
I am lost ....I lost myself
The years just slipping by and by...


I pray yes I pray well sometimes on and off I call out to God help!!
Help me!
Why won't you help ?
why God Why ??
Why don't you love me like you love them
them who can walk with their heads held high ...
they all made mistakes too I am sure well maybe they do...
I pause. ...
I am sorry God
yes I am sorry for my mistakes
I can't help it God i couldn't..
now i know better please help please please help me so I too can hold my head up high ..
And then one day I can call out to her ... to them and smile...

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