Pain from loving someone's potential"

Life is a journey that has its ups and downs
It can bring you to tears or bring you joy all around.
The path we take can cause us heartache or bring us laughter. The tears we shed can release the pain or make us angry. The laughter can allow us to forget the pain for a moment; however, the little moments are the memories we cherish but the hurtful memories stay in our heads asking ourselves “WHY?”
Why do I fall in love with the wrong people? The people we think are the one to spend our lives with forever. Does the pain ever end or the regrets that I feel? Will I ever trust or find love in my heart again?
Love is pain and Pain is Love because it drives us crazy whether it is a broken heart or getting our favorite tattoo. The tears still come up and we try to hold them back, but sometimes these emotions get too heavy for our hearts and we must release the pain.

The pain takes my breath away and I need to scream on a beach where I  feel the sun and ocean breeze on my face.

When we love someone so much that we want the best for them that we try anything. We cry, pray, and love them until it turns into anger or resentment. All you want is for that person to see you and love you the same way, or the potential they have in themselves.

Is it real love you feel or is it the potential you see in that person that you love? Will he ever change or does the pain  end or do I walk away forever?
When all I want to do is cry out for the person and make them feel my pain so they can understand how I really feel.

Love is not supposed to be this way or am I dreaming or watching a love story movie. Is my heart to soft or am I stupid to think a man can love me the same way I love.
All I want to do is scream, shout, cry, and drop to my knees and say “WHY”? All I ever wanted is for him to give me the same love and not take me for granted. I wanted him to just come home, but instead he chose a different path I can’t follow. All the revengeful anger built up rendered me to make choices that were out of my character.

The tears still fall down my face and I can’t breathe but I will push forward and carry on with life. The good and bad memories will be with me forever. I will cherish all the laughter we shared and occasionally laugh through the tears.

Yes, my heart has hardened and I will never love another for I gave him all me and there is nothing left but a bitter woman. I hope he finds happiness and all his dreams come true.

Entities of earth watch over him and show him the light because all my love I gave him brought me too much pain. I am just sorry that my love was not enough.