Note to self.

I should have loved you
From the start
More intensely,
More completely.

The last time
I told you
I loved you,
I can't even remember.

I fall apart so quick.
I have given up on you
In dreadful surrender
More than I care to admit.

Leaving you
In dark dejected places,
Withering away,
Counting you amongst the dead.

What have I done to you.
How could I?
I should have known
Better.

It has always
Been you,
My constant believer,
Relentless dreamer.
 
Crackling with hope,
Your love's warm embers
Illuminate a path
Out of my darkest despair.

Holding my hand
Down every road,
Past my demons and trolls,
You never let go.

It is time I make us whole.
Permit your love
To take control,
Alchemy of the soul.

Together
We matter.
We are
Gold.

I was.
I believe, I can.
In love,
I am.