Lost with out u

As I sit hear listening to the rain fall drop by drop on the roof of my tent I think about who's crying today is it grandma Ruth who went away a year ago to day or is it Chris that past on the fourth of July right before the parade or my sister who died who passed 8 long months ago or my daddy who was in the military that cumited suvcide caus he nos today is a very hard day y couldn't it me me I have nothing at stake u all had so much left to do I need u all hear caus I don't no what to do with out u hear please tell me y I am so confused please help me before I do what I feel I can do please come help it's gonna take our army to pull me throu