Can I be real

Can I be real in a world that is fake
Can I be ideal or it'll be a mistake
Like in the matrix, can I be awake
Can I let you feel me, will that heal me,
Or it'll give me more ache
If I reveal what I conceal in me, will it appeal to you
Or you'll shake me back to sleep

For who wants to wake deep in their sweet dreams
Who wants to wake to a whirled world
A wheel world, the real world, full of weeping
They just want to keep sleeping
They enjoy cheap things
They wear high heels
Take selfies eating expensive meals
They can't afford so they steal
So that they may look happy
As they seal their truth through their sleep

I just fear for the day they'll sleep and not wake
The day their dream will be a nightmare
For it's rare to find those who kneel in prayer
People swear as if its not sin
As if God will spare their tongues from the flames that spin
All they care about is finding a pair
As if being single is a sin
I know as the bible begins it says be fruitful
I'm sure it didn't say you must have affairs
For it also says be faithful
You must treat her like a jewel
And she treats you like her fuel
But no, you guys use each other like tools
You only care about looking cool
You break the rules but want to rule
You just full of greed, you want to be ahead
Take the lead, but tell me, who follows a fool
Who's even lazy to read news, fails to be grateful
You want to succeed fast, don't you know speed kills
Soon you'll be dead
Sometimes you don't even make your bed but
You want to share your life with someone special

What do you want to share?
That you're fake, a reality that you can't even bear
Tell me, what do you want to share
Because you got no seed to sow, you're bare handed
You're dry like the ....
Tell me, other than your weed and empty pride
What do you wanna share
For I know you will hide that you bleed
Or you want to share that you can't feed
Or maybe you just want to take and leave

Adam said, she's the bone of my bones
But you flirt with every girl you meet
Tell me, how many bones do you have
How many lies up your sleeves
You build your throne on
the count of girls you made moan
Yes you stoned a lot so what?
Should I cut my gut out or what

Amazing how society accepts sluts
But to rejects those who are real
They get drilled,
They are given pills as if they're ill

How many guys did you block on your phone
How many did you friend zone
How many guys did you call your own
How many positions do you know
How many cocks have you blown
Why is it hard to just be alone
Why is it hard to be real and still be accepted

Why does it take fake hair
Fake boobs, fake asses and abs
Fake smiles and lifestyles
With Snapchat profiles
Edited pics, lip sticks, giving others blue ticks
Facebook likes, Insta followers
Fake friends, pretense
Girlfriends, boyfriends
When will all this madness end
When will this trend get burnt
When will we stop comparing and be content
When will we be real

I know all this we can't change
Why though do we deny that
We care about the likes,
The numbers who follow us
If she blue ticked me or not
If my boobs are big or not
If he'll like the dress I'm wearing
Moreover, is it better than that girl
He can't stop staring at
Why do we pretend we don't care about our weight
About the size of the dick, how long we last
Why do we hide it
Because society doesn't accept what's real
And I thought we are the society

Why fear being real
Because of what they might treat you
They might either accept or reject
If they reject you you might hurt
Aren't you hurting already from being fake
Won't they learn to accept you
If they can't then they aren't for you
Real people will come to you

Can I be real in a world that is fake
Can I be ideal or it'll be a mistake
Like in the matrix, can I be awake
Can I let you feel me, will that heal me,
Or it'll give me more ache
If I reveal what I conceal in me, will it appeal to you
Or you'll shake me back to sleep

Can I be real in a world that is fake
Can I be ideal or it'll be a mistake
Like in the matrix, can I be awake
Can I let you feel me, will that heal me,
Or it'll give me more ache
If I reveal what I conceal in me, will it appeal to you
Or you'll shake me back to sleep

Friend, if I tell you that I don't like that I'm fat
Will you tell me that I'm not
Will you tell me it's not that bad
Will you tell me that I should learn to love myself
Or will you dedicate yourself to help me lose weight

Will you think of me as weak
If I told you I can't get over her
Though she treats me as shit
But her I still prefer
If I told you I care about the likes
I'm on social media because I don't have a life
If I told you blue ticks hurts me
Would you think weak of me

If I told you I like your life better than mine
Will you be real and show me its all not that fine
Or you will use me to make yourself feel more divine
You will undermine me, just because I was genuine

If I told you I don't want to get drunk
Because it gets me horny
If I am lonely
Would you take advantage and want to get cosy

If I told you I'm a sex addict
I'm alcoholic, I masturbate
I can't stop watching pornography
What would you respond
Would you brush it off
Would you go out of your way to pray with me
Or would I become your prey
Would you take advantage of me
Would you run away
Would you pause your life to help me manage
On a world where everyone minds their own business

If your best friend told you
I have fallen in love with you
Even if it's just a friend
A long time or childhood friend
If they told you they have they've fallen in love with you
But your friendship means more than their feelings
What would you do
Would you take advantage
Would you run away
Would you brush it off
Would you go with the flow
Or you would also be real

If I told you I was gay
Would you still be my friend
What if I told you I was gay
And I was into you
Would you still be my friend
Would you take advantage
Would you run away
Would you brush it off
Would you go with the flow
Or you would also be real

What if I told you I had cancer
Would you pay extra care
Be like the world, make me feel I can't cope
When I smile you say I fake
You don't get it when I say I got hope
I won't take a rope and end it all
What if I told you I have HIV
Can you still see me as normal
I'm not saying pretend like I'm not
I'm saying, can you still see me as normal

If I showed you my flaws
My shortcomings, my faults
If I showed you I'm insecure
I don't have it under control
I am not as brave as I appear
I have a broken soul
I'm not the hero you think I am
I have holes
I know, I'm sure you don't want to know
But I'm tired of pretending I don't feel this cold
Can I show you my snow and what hides in my shadow
Would you withdraw  if I show you I don't really glow
Would you still embrace me as before
Can you love me beyond my flaws
Or you'll just show me the door
Or maybe you wont do that
You're afraid of what they'll think
Then you keep me but ignore, give me make up
Make me regret why I was real

Can I show you that I grow old
And I wont always look this good
I am a real girl not Cinderella
I don't know who's your dream guy
But I am real I can't meet all your standards
I don't want to lose you but these lice
I'm tired of these parasites sucking my blood
These pretense is now flooding my life
I ain't a pig, I can't be happy in mud

What if I told you I slept with your friend
But I regret it
What I told you I have a crush on your best friend
She really looks hot and you're my girlfriend
But I want you, will always love you over her

What If I told you I cheat on someone you crush on
I don't want to but I fail to stop
Would you go and tell them
Or would you try and help

What if I told you as my boss that I have been stealing
I tell you that I'm the one who costed the company millions
But I want to change

What if I told you I think you're ugly
You are ruining my life
And you thought you're my best friend

What if I told you I'm the one who separated you and your partner
And the truth was that I was jealous and I'm sorry

Would you let me be real
Or you're fine with the lies
Would you let me be real
Or the lies treat you just fine

I know you know my sins
Though they think I am clean
I know you know I need to be rinsed
Though I know you know I am sick
I still hide like I am fit, think I am unseen
For they promote holiness and I'm a mess
They address us as if ever if I'm not holy
I'm demon possessed

I feel like they preach of sermons I can't relate to
They dress me up in white linen
So I look less of a mess and more blessed
I am suppressed inside as I battle with my desires
and the obligation I feel to impress
They don't allow me to express myself
So they never know that I am stressed
They tell me what's right and wrong and leave
I then strive to achieve the statutes and I succeed
But I am still the same inside
You only managed to hide my flaws
You're obsessed with results
As if behavior gets people to heaven
I can't blame that is your limit
Can you admit
Admit that you can't change me inside
Can you sit back and relax
Permit the one and only who can
For I know he doesn't want my perfection
He wants my heart's attention
He won't give me dictations to correct me
He'll give me affection
He wants me real
He wants me to reveal that I am weak
For He is strong in my weaknesses
Other than expecting me to be strong
He becomes my strength
He doesn't force me to be a lie
He is patient I feel free and me around Him

Can I be real in a world that is fake
Can I be ideal or it'll be a mistake
Like in the matrix, can I be awake
Can I let you feel me, will that heal me,
Or it'll give me more ache
If I reveal what I conceal in me, will it appeal to you
Or you'll shake me back to sleep

For we fear to fall into despair
So we hide that we err
How can we ever get repaired?
While we fear to fall into despair
So we hide that we err
How can we expect to get repaired?

Can I be real in a world that is fake
Can I be ideal or it'll be a mistake
Like in the matrix, can I be awake
Can I let you feel me, will that heal me,
Or it'll give me more ache
If I reveal what I conceal in me, will it appeal to you
Or you'll shake me back to sleep

Yes you can
Question is, do you have what it takes