I remember you.

One more lonely night,
Where dark sky and the moon was sight.
I remember you, I hope you do too.
I don't know how everything disappeared out of blue.

I stay up all night ,
tell myself that everything is alright.
My heart hurts on the thought of you,
Everything will turn out like this, who knew?

I want to tell you that you hurt me with your words.
But I am afraid of your outbursts,
You disappeared without any other thought.
You didn't stayed, even that was my fault?

I am exhausted...I feel tired.
I don't even know if I am required.
You say I don't understand.
But I am scared i'll say something & you'll get mad.

I sob to myself every night to sleep.
I wonder if I am that hard to keep.
I am sorry if I didn't say 'please stay'.
Because someday I tried and they still went away.

But I wish you would have noticed, how I walked after you as far as I could.
And then it hurts to listen 'I didn't understood'.
You say I am 'immature'.
But you don't know how I feel insecure.

You don't know how I struggle everyday to keep myself busy.
You don't know how I've been feeling weak and dizzy.
You don't know how I tried to help you with everything you talked about.
You don't know how I struggle to put my own demons out.

You say 'I don't know a damn thing about you.'
Now you tell me, is it my fault too?
You assume something and refuse to believe my side.
You want me to understand, when was the last time you tried?

I am tired of pretending that I am fine.
I am tired of staying in line.
No matter how much I do, it is never enough.
Even I'm suffering through life that seems rough.

I wait for a moment that might never come.
Don't blame me if I say I've been feeling numb.
But again, we haven't been ourselves from a long time.
I think about the time, I confidently claimed you mine.

I smile, thinking about the sweet misunderstanding that led me to meeting you.
I remember you, I hope you do too....