The love of a son

What kind of love will I present to my little boy?
What kind of life will I escape to let him see?;
Bearing in mind of all my attitude before u were born, even suggestions of terminating your arrival. But my heart is gladden because I listen to your whispers, so faintly but was loud enough to make an echo. You were a desire I long for in your arrival, you take everything that was remaining in my heart, your beauty was a joy to behold, when I look at you in my arms on your first day of your arrival to planet earth, I was marvel, "what a sweet little thing doing in my arms". You quiver on my touch and I said to you "you are save son, daddy is here, no harm will come to you" i lose you once, i won't do that twice. I love you despite the pain and sense of betrayal, I still have to toil despite the burden of heartache. Everyday with you is like a miraculous happiness though I didn't deserve it. You were like a treasure bestow upon my blossom, I saw your pure innocence of the guilty you were charge. I blame myself for been too hard on you, you reprogram me with only your image inside, you become my moon, sun, stars, my dreams, my desires, my kingdom, my happiness, my archer, my little prince.