Freako

The dying echo of a faded scream

I must be dreaming of a life that i'll never see

I may seem perfect but ain't noting what it seems

There was a time in my life where my mind felt happy

Now I'm on the outside lookin watchin' everybody pass me

People think I'm weird, but they're the ones who ain't grasping

That my psychosis leaves me crying and dying and gasping

Its true, I may be psychologically ill

But I still got a life, I can still neurologically feel

Its not my fault I see things that aren't logically real

You can't understand how an apology would feel

I keep on pushing myself

I keep on trying to help

People who just want my material wealth

People don't give a f*ck about my mental health

My mom don't care bout the bad cards I was dealt

My dad told, "Take a look at yourself,

You're up to your knees in percriptions

You ain't nothing more than a bad decision"

I ran to my room and made the hundreth insision

Razors and box cutters crusted with blood

Surrounded by hallucinations that I know ain't more than figments

Of my tormented soul

That won't never be whole

I isolate like a mole

I dug myself into a hole

I take an eye for an eye,

Turned myself into a spy

An eye for an eye for a lie,

Or a lie for the tears that I cried

People watching me

They're always watching me

They take one look and then they mock me

But if I try to kill myself they stop me(why?)

Can't even count my damn calories

Packaged rotten food in a psych ward

Bad hand writing on a white board

24/7 life guards

won't fix the screaming in my head

like life would

I just feel like I am on a rampage and the souls I was seeing

Told me I was more than a physical being

Now tell me, what was I supposed to be thinking?

The voices in my head keep growing and shrinking.

Now I'm gonna wrap this up,

Thank you for your time,

But before you go, listen to this line:

I may be crazy but this ain't the old age

All those things you hear about schizos, they're just cliches

So please think, before you run away

We're all just humans tryna make our own way.